despair

hi peers!!! the first day of beginning week. besides, also the week hand out the exam paper. the tension never less. when the paper hand out, the feeling is despair. i can't blame the teacher didn't teach us well or what. i just can said i didn't work hard. actually, i know i do the wrong decision when i enter the class 4a10. i should permit to art class. i know i'm the illiterate of science. i should not be able to stay at here. but that time, i told myself never try never know. but the consequence is i can't handle the subject well. now, i think i want to drop the subject of addmath. but i know is too late. i really confusing. just left few days the form four going to end the form 5 going to start. then, all of the syallabus of form 4 i can't handle well. so how i form 5 life. i know that is suffering. My God, give me some ideas.
although, everyday i have pass happily. but the problem still at there. wtf!!!

besides the exam, some people make me felt reject. okay! you asked us for duty then okay. we fulfil your instruct. we just talked for awhile, you scolded us and said if you want change the troop then go ahead.you don't tell me you never talk before. wtf!!! i hate you!!! anti you.
and i tell you i won't obey what you said, because this is what you told me just now. i want duty or don't is my decision. and i scolded by someone also my personal prob. don't drop your image and your troop image. BASTARD!!! and want said sorry to Bowie. maybe because of me make you scolded by her. so sorry!!!
the things should i do is work hard. incoming two months hols i must do more practise. :)